Why did I go back? immune system started working.
MARCH 12th BEGIN DATE
- Meat, Mostly Red
- Dairy: Butter / Cream / Cheese / Greek Yogurt
- Salt (Redmond’s Real)
- Keto Electrolyte Mix (plain)
- Eggs
- Conditional 1 teaspoon of honey
- Biotin w/C, Vitamin D, Vitamin K, Magnesium Citrate or Glycinate
Macros: 60-70% Fat, 20-30% Protein – misc. carbs
MISTAKES I’VE MADE
- Too much protein and not enough fat – had to dial down the protein even if it meant eating 3 meals or even four per day. Had to add in heavy cream to the coffee in the morning to get in enough fat.
- Electrolyte mishap – was using the scoop as a measure. Doh, so stupid. (Later figured out I had been using too much electrolyte full stop. Had to cut it down. It was definitely tied to higher energy levels but also the night sweats.)
- In the beginning I kept trying different meat, now I’ve settled on Rib Eye primarily.
- I had to get rid of the apple, the sugar free candy shit – all of that had to go.
- I kept in coffee
SIDEBAR – WHAT ABOUT VITAMIN C! YOU’LL GET SCURVY!
The official: vitamin C competes with glucose for uptake so on a low-carb diet you don’t need that much and meat contains tiny amounts! Read the book ‘Fat of the Land’!
Real reason: In the US at least meat is treated with Ascorbic Acid / Sodium Ascorbate (Vitamin C derivatives) acid to maintain freshness and keep its red color so if you’re eating beef, ground beef particularly cheaper cuts or those from a super center…it contains Vitamin C LOL. And the book, ‘Fat of the Land’ — don’t dig too far into Vilhjálmur Stefánsson or you’ll find out what a fucking fraud he was and how he sent two men to their deaths on a remote Russian island due to scurvy. Also: That isn’t even his real name. He’s just William. No flourish. Okay now that we’ve solved that side bar about scurvy – note I also just take vitamin C in a small amount every so often, over 500mg and it becomes oxidizing.
THURSDAY MARCH 13th 2025
I just took a nap. I slept. I slept like a normal human. I can’t fucking believe it. And last night, you know what I did? SLEPT. Fucking hell, was it really all this time down to carbohydrate? (It turned out to be the magnesium citrate, however due to nausea I eventually returned to taking Benedryl to sleep 🙁 Eh’ this could be a glitch in the Matrix, will have to wait and see. I cook up meat in duck fat, I serve that with a pat of butter. I drink a lot of water with a little electrolyte in it – before I thought the scoop was the suggested serving size because I am literally retarded. It was so disgusting I couldn’t choke it down. Dialed it back and now I can drink it just fine, just need a pinch not a teaspoon. (I was having a reaction to that particular KETO electrolyte and ended up throwing it away)
WEDNESDAY MARCH 19th 2025
I’m really fatigued, dizzy and brain not working today. I’m kinda confused, been doing good up until this point. I was having a very odd nightmare last night, very odd and at one point I thought – omg, this is it for me and then black. Nothing. I’m falling and spinning and it’s seizure time. First seizure on this diet. I had one other one after that. Hmm. I added Greek Yogurt to my day, maybe I need to remove that? I skipped heavy cream this morning, not enough fat? idk…
APRIL 9th
I had to cut out the dairy except for minor pats of butter for the steak. No more dairy. I have had a few issues last week such as a weird spell where I got quite sick to my stomach a couple of days in a row and had diarrhea. It felt like my same old crap coming back to haunt me.
I’ve had a couple of flutters from seizures but nothing like they used to be. I wake up and look forward to the day now with happy anticipation. Should I ride my bike? Garden? I’m looking forward to the gym and I don’t think I’ll need a sugary drink this time to get through it (so wrong). I’m not quite there yet, but I can see that maybe it’s in the future now (yeah for optimism).
I was off the diet for a few days a week or so ago, but it works too well for me and I had to attempt to get back there. It’s easier this go.
We bought a grill, and I found out you can cut steaks yourself.
So I have bought a vacuum sealer and a meat grinder attachment and I’m going to make my own hamburger and cut my own steaks, roasts, stew meat etc. with luck! It’s expensive to buy that much meat at a go but a person saves about $5 per pound and for me, I can leave a lot of fat on my steaks which I like. For grilling I want to smoke and cook brisket, a low-carb bbq, hamburgers and the like.
APRIL 16th
No longer using the duck fat typically, just don’t need it. Throw the steak into a hot pan a couple of minutes later food is done. Sprinkle it at the very end with some salt. Done. Worked outside rigorously for three days straight, no crash, no PEM. I did use Keto Electrolyte mix which seems to give me energy (a different mix, this one had Stevia in it though which I’m allergic to unfortunately because it was quite good and I enjoyed the flavor).
I still have sugar sneaking in – need to eliminate that. I still drink coffee, probably just how things are going to be.
APRIL 17th Seizures Return
I woke up early a.m. and all my joints were hurting particularly in my hips, neck, back – all of it. Just a generalized pain that stretching, rolling over, nothing helped with the pain. It was around 4:30am and I rolled about until I finally got up. I had been up and down all night having to pee, why I don’t know, it was weird. Finally got up, ate some breakfast so I could take ibuprofen and drank some coffee but around 6:20 the world seemed to shift a little and I felt like I was falling and then a sort of terror took hold and I started coughing and I knew I was in trouble. I immediately took .5 of Lorezepam to head off further seizure activity and I fell asleep in recliner listening to news out of China.
I had been in an unusual mood the night before. Trouble, restless but I couldn’t put my finger on why. Just in general in a weird place mentally. Upset. This is generally the time I usually get seizures. Still though it’s very unpleasant. I went to Costco for ice cream for lunch, I guess hoping the extra carbs might help. They didn’t. The ibuprofen helped my joints, but it’s wearing off I can tell and they’re hurting again. So weird. Anyway, probably won’t end up in the hospital this time at least.
I’ve had a weird sort of deja vu where it’s like half of me is alive and well living their best life in Okinawa and I’m here in the PNW — but this isn’t where I’m supposed to be. I’m supposed to be in Naha and everything all the time reminds me of Naha, like I do laundry and I think – I should put these on the dryer rack on the balcony. It’s super weird and I’m not sure it’s healthy, idk…
APRIL 23 2025
HOW AM I EVEN ALIVE?
WET BERIBERI / Extreme Thiamine Deficiency
I have Beriberi and that is what has been putting me in the hospital and fucking me up everyday. When my head cleared a little bit from the immense non-stop fog and I could think and reason it out (I had reasoned this out before, but I can’t keep thoughts and memories up too well)…yeah, I have fucking Beriberi. I have four copies of the MTHFR gene, and that’s what I banked on to not have those tumors go cancerous as no one in my family has EVER had cancer. ever. (Spoiler – I had a giant tumor and not beriberi).
But we all die from Type II Diabetes / Heart related issues and that’s no joke and we tend to die early and terribly. So it’s genetic that I can’t do much with B vitamins and then carbohydrates require Thiamine to generate energy and keep the body going / brain / nervous system. The end result is a whole galaxy of symptoms from severe anxiety, brain fog, forgetfulness, stabbing pain in my toes, inability to digest most food, falling asleep if I ever have carbs, not falling asleep at night when I’m supposed to (insomnia), muscle weakness, nausea/vomiting, my joints pop out of place all the time (that’s probably Ehlers-Danlos)…with my blood pressure spikes, heart pounding out of my chest (visibly) and pain in my neck arteries I was really on my way out. Now I’m weening off caffeine (which also blocks thiamine) and take:
- Magnesium citrate before bed
- Thiamine
- Beef Liver Capsules
- Vitamin K2 5,000 mcg
I am very concerned about the amount of accumulated damage. God, to think I was trying to memorize a language and go on with normal life with this huge rock stuck to my back.
So to be up to date – I’m quitting coffee, I have to.
100% carnivore except for a teaspoon of ‘sanity honey’ as dessert in hot water after dinner with a pinch of barley tea. Some seasonings.
LET’S TALK RESULTS
- Weight gain +5 (that’s not good, but I think it will correct with time.)
- Insane sensitivity to smells, and my smell accuracy is crazy good now.
- Muscle recovery is excellent
- Colors are brighter, the change in my vision I find very intriguing
- My hair stopped falling out
- I don’t fall asleep during the day anymore unless I legitimately need a nap
- Brain fog is better
- I have a bloated stomach and abdomen (see comment about giant tumor)
- I’ve been pooping just fine, no constipation despite 0 fiber. (that was about to get a lot worse)
- Sometimes I get heartburn, but I just started weening off caffeine and I drink a lot of coffee. I also have been using an electrolyte that has Stevia and I’m allergic to it.
- Fewer and less dramatic seizures (less dramatic thanks to Ativan – which I started to have to take more and more of unfortunately.)
- My period was very light, I noticed previously that anytime I knuckled under and did plant based ‘correctly’ that my period became extremely heavy. TMI. Sorry, I’m writing this mostly for my future self. (The next month it arrived in spades, it was so heavy I had to wear overnight pads and change them every couple of hours – see giant fucking tumor comment)
- Hormones still rather non-existent (which is a big problem)
I’ve had intrusive kinda of de ja vu or jamais vu, not sure what to call it. But it keeps asserting itself ALL THE TIME. It’s like when I would have a psychic hunch as a kid but x100. Each time I’m back in Japan, sometimes pictures will be there, or a thought, I’ll need to do xzy for Japan. It’s not just a “I might go back” it’s a certainty. Rational brain says, “that is crazy.” But reptile brain is getting prepared like I’ll arrive tomorrow. It’s bizarre. Rational brain says it’s a misfiring because my brain is low on glucose and I have seizures and I’m very vitamin depleted. So we’ll see, if I end up in Japan on the island of Okinawa for awhile – because my brain isn’t prepared for a two day trip, it’s thinking months maybe years – then it’s true.
So what happened is my abdomen started hurting and cramping more and more. I was constipated and it felt like a blockage but way up at the beginning of the intestine, not at the bottom where I had a blockage previously (while on another stint of KETO a few years ago). I did a three day fast with senna, miralax, stool softener and magnesium. It didn’t really budge. I ended up going in for x-rays and finally a CT with contrast where they saw a very large fibroid tumor that was blocking things up. Slippery elm and supplements helped sweep the blockage finally and it was the worst. Like the stuff that came out wasn’t poo – it was just a nasty black mass of ick that smelled like blood and rot. It was horrible. I don’t know if the blockage was caused by KETOVORE or from the tumor but that ended the diet once and for all. Sorry for the TMI.
